Why Do I Have To Choose by Jared Lee.

Lawaaaaaaaaaaa.

Downloadkan lagu atu, and pass it to me, please? Hehe. Siapa ada... mintaaaa!!

The sun is out (YAY) and the wind is not too strong. Well, I dunno actually, since I haven't been out the whole day. I'm hardly out anymore nowadays, and I prefer it to be that way right now. Reason for being so is because of the exams *nyeh*. Don't wanna go out (unless to the library, and occasional stress-relief trips to here and there) if it can be helped. Tapi after exams, bah liat saja, I'll be going to the city regularly!! Mwahahaha!! And hopefully go on a long due trip to Notts (AHEM), Hull and maybe Edinburgh ;p Who knows. And oh, to Cheshire Oaks!! Arah shopping outlet!! *Yay*!!

I'll be starting my exams early, and they end early too =p. On the 22nd to be exact =p. But I won't go further to that topic since some people *ahem* won't like it. Hee. But, before that, like everybody else, I'll have to study for the exams. *Sigh*. Which is what I was doing before this. But I keep falling asleep tho', 'cos I was reading on the bed. LOL. But I prefer reading on the bed 'cos it makes me concentrate more somehow. Woot. Anyway.

Hmmm. I'll be going to Manch's M'sian later. Gonna get ready after this... going to the place around 6.30 PM. Dunno what time it'll end tho'. And I'll be wearing baju kurung =). The dress code is traditional/smart... and I wanna show off our own baju kurung style... so... yea... haha krg lah tu.

Chatting wif Ka'Minah and Boy now...

And oh, today is our one year anniversary for the scholars =))))))) Tua kami sudah. But young at heart. LOL.

He said: Kalau you nampak lelaki cute, what would you do or think of him?
She said: Just look at him? If the guy is cute, so what? There are hundreds more who are even cuter than him, it doesn't mean I will go for every single one of them. Faces are just faces. How you connect with the guy is what matters =).

Or girls. God.... I'm still jet lagged. Uh oh. Huhu.

I feel different.
I just somehow feel... out of myself.
Ya get what I mean?

Going home soon =)

I need to communicate more with people.
lol.

Have you ever felt that the time goes slower when the holiday is nearer?

I'm sure you have.

I. Don't. Like. It!

Lambat ehhhhhhh!!
Ngaleh ku sudah menunggu bahhhh.... hahaha!
Okay, this is a useless post.

Two of my flatmates I'm close with are sick. As in, more-than-5-days sick.
No wonder I've been coughing now and then a lot lately. And this morning, I was a bit dizzy. Prolly from the lack of food, and sleep. And the flu germs my flatmates have been spreading around. Lol. Nah, I feel sorry for them. Cos we all have to pack everyFREAKINthing by this Friday. And they have to do it while they're sick =S. We need to move out of our COMFY hall for Easter. Blah. And then I'LL BE OFF TO D.C. BY SUNDAY!! Ahhhh I can't wait! I need a break. Huhu.

I just read a girl's blog. Her posts are mostly about sports, food and her bf. Ain't that great? All good things =). Siuk membaca =). Lol. Still reading it actually. I asked her if I could play netball or something with them nanti in Summer, and train with them as well. =).

Hmm. "Oh sod it." I'm taking a nap before trying to tackle my next essay. Huhu.

I was thinking of roses when I woke up.
I was thinking of some friends... how the guy used to shower the girl with surprise gifts, or just basically surprises. Then it got me thinking (I think a LOT on the bed... LOL), why would he do that? What's in it for him? Sure, they're a couple and everything, but won't that get old eventually? Wouldn't that be too cheesy? Do couples HAVE to give presents to each other? Why is it that some people say they would do anything for their other half, even though we all well know that they can't do all of it?

Well, before you think I'm a cynic, let me share with you what I believe the answers are.

I've had my share of helping my guy friends shopping for their girlfriend. They'll ask me a LOT of questions... would it be too corny to give red roses? Or would a pink or white one send a different message? Will she like this necklace? How about chocolates? What's her favourite colour? Decisions. Decisions. Decisions. The vice versa applies too. Will he like this perfume? (*ahem* remember this Nas? HAHA) What's his shoe size again? Do you think he'll like this wallet? How about a watch? A T-shirt? No? What else should I give him?? Hahaha... those were the good times =) For me, the reason why they did all that - going through a lot of trouble with endless questions, making sure what they want to give will be liked by their partner - is that because they just want to please him/her, and make them happy.

I even remember once, I thought my friend's bf would be incapable of being romantic - but then he surprised us both (indirectly) when some people told us that he was actually saving up money (behind her back) to buy my friend a mobile phone, since she's been telling some people that she wants a new one... now that's what you call 'listening', and he well wanted to please her at that time - to see the look on her face when he does finally give her the phone - all his time and money worth it just to know that he has somehow managed to make her day =).

About worrying that always giving surprise presents would get old eventually... well... will you ever get tired of getting surprises? (Good ones, that is.) Especially at our age (well, any age before you get married), it's the time of chivalry romance, time to go through that cheesy and mushy phase for at least a period in your life, time to be a little bit over the top, before all that becomes non-existant or fade away after you have a dozen kids.

As for cheesy-ness... well, most of us try to avoid being cheesy. So, put 'yourself' into what your given them. So you buy him/her chocolates - wrap the chocolate box with newspaper (because you both once talked about saving the environment by recycling), so you by him/her a perfume - get them one and pretend it's not from you and say that you would never, ever get them something which would out-do their own smell (ofcourse eventually you have to admit, right?). Add something personal to it =).

Do they HAVE to give each other presents?... Well, I'm a believer in the saying, "It's the thought that counts." Be it a flower you've illegally plucked from the Queen's garden, be it anything purple because he/she likes the colour, or be it the free newspaper available, just because they like reading it.

"I would do anything for you" sounds extreeeemmmmely corny, but there has to be some truth in it. If you're really into someone, I guess you would do anything for them - to be more realistic - you would do anything within your power at that time, with the current situation, where you will TRY to do your best for them. Doesn't have to be perfect, at least you've tried. Listening to their needs and wants.

I guess when it comes to this feeling called love or fondness, all that matters is making them happy. Material-wise or not. Though it all may seem so complicated, but hey, IF you're really into them, nothing is hard since your feelings for them will overtake that hardship.

But my favourite reason for doing all of the above actually came from a very tight knit group of friends (if we still are) - for 'investment'. That word is very appropriate for them because they're business students, lol. Well, used to be. Some of you may know who I'm talking about. We used to have really deep talks together. I miss that, prolly because I'm that type of person. Anyways, some of them once in a while would get me from my house, and then we'll go somewhere to hang out. This one time, one of them sanggup come from his house in Muara to get me in Sengkurong, and then had a talk at a cafe in between where we both live.

On my mind at that time was, didn't he mind wasting his petrol on me? We don't have anything special or anything, we're just really close friends at that time. I asked him why he sanggup get me... his answer was because I am an investment to him. To his future. Meaning that whatever you do for a friend or a lover would be worth it for the future. You're not going to be wasting your time and money on just someone, you'll be spending it on someone who will be part of your future. Eventually, I'll re-pay him for what he did for me (by belanja-ing him once in a while - lol. Or it's because he thinks I'll become his lawyer for his company someday. Haha that was his dreams =))). And even if they don't become part of your future (sometimes the world works this way - good and bad), at least I'm pretty sure each of you will learn something off from each other. That's why when I give something to someone, the word 'investment' would be on my mind.

A practical person would say that, well, wouldn't it be practical and just have a chat over the internet? Or on the phone? Would save a LOT of money and time. Hey, I agree, it sure would. But then, that feeling of being appreciated wouldn't be there. That feeling of being special to someone, without having to be their girlfriend or boyfriend, wouldn't be there. Again, my friend's act of picking me up from my house was because he wanted to, not because he needed to. Why buy a rose? It would die out eventually anyway. Yes, True. But the thought of it will not. Oh, you could buy her a teddy bear, but that has no purpose, I'll buy her a notebook instead. At least she'll have some use for it. Yes, teddies prolly have no real purpose, but they do have something personal, symbolic behind the idea of giving a teddy bear. An idea of your own.

And another thing - the person you spoil him or her presents with doesn't necessarily have to be a lover. They could be your friends =)))))))

- I would give anything to be with my closest friends on their birthdays, but if I can't make it (say, because they're on the other side of the world *HINT* *HINT*), then I'd just make it up to them by surprising them with something.

- I tend to spoil the people I love or fond of, with surprises and stuff =))).

- I would give anything right now to be with the 4 girls.

- I would give anything right now to hang out with that crazy girl in Oz =p

- I would give anything right now just to be next to him, and KICK him =p

- I would give anything right now to spoil my siblings with SUSHI (okay, more like, i just want to eat SUSHI haha).

- I would give anything right now just to be in London already with Yng and them all.

- I would give anything right now to be with my cousin Dibah, and have weird, and somewhat inspiring conversations with her, lol.

- I would give anything right now to know who, amongst all of you, have really read and connect with what I've just written about, compared to those who've just skimmed through THE LONG PARAGRAPHS. Because it would show who actually cares to hear what nonsense I've got to say. LOL.

Okay, I'll save you the trouble of going thorugh more long paragraphs by ending it here =).

Because of the tea, I can't sleep!! It's 5:30 AM already!!

Well, okay the reason I drank the tea was because I wanted to be awake - to readdddd. Not much reading going on though =p =X (awuuuu wahhhhh... nanti lagi sambung bacaaaa... jgn marah ah... =))

Haha, daymm I need to go to the library tomorrow. Which means, I better sleep after this. I remember one of Kher Wee's post in his blog about staying up late for no reason. There's even a group for that sorta stuff at Facebook. Lol. Speaking of Facebook, its making Friendster look OLD. The shift is going from one to another. The funny thing is, they're almost the same thing. Makes you waste time. Although, it does have its plus sides, for e.g.,  you get to sorta bond with some people. You get to share photos. And oh yeah. You can spy on other people's lives. Tsk. I'd be a hypocrite if I say I don't do what the others are doing there.

The difference between the two is that not a lot of Bruneians know about FB - YET. Oh yes, you'll see. Somehow... SOMEHOW, we'll manage to invade that site. Huhu.

I'm supposed to be reading about tort (google it, LOL). But I'll do that tomorrow. I'll be there until the library closes, and I don't care if I have to walk back alone. I'll have lunch around the area, and dinner as well I guess. Alone. Maybe. The sandwich bar is there. Unless I go to Rusholme, call some people up and have lunch with them. Ohhhh, I'll sneak in some food into the library tomorrow! Something for dinner! Geeee. I'me getting excited about having dinner at the library. How sad it that?? Haha.

Well, the thing is, I'm trying to finish an essay or two before Easter starts. All essays due this Friday. And I HOPE I can finish them all. But even if I have to do one essay in DC, I wouldn't mind, because I think I can manage to do one essay in the whole two weeks time I'm gonna be there, no?

I have a feeling I'm gonna wake up late tomorrow. Since I'm not even feeling sleepy now. Not a good thing. *Sigh*. Oh well, might as well get to some reading until I become sleepy.

It's a magical thing
Standing there at the stage
The lights dimmed
Nothing heard
Except your voice
And the melody that helps
Soothes the souls
Belting out a song
Touching hearts listening to you.

The power being felt
Lasting for a few minutes
For a while the world stops
Allowing you to be heard
Connections made
Worthwhile even for the tiniest moments
The fewest pure moments
Where nothing else matters.

Inspired by the movie, Win A Date With Tad Hamilton.

"... To love someone, you have to know their details... the little things that make things matter. Otherwise, you could have just loved another person who is nice and funny. It's the details that makes a person who they are - unique. Love a person because he/she tends to snort when laughing, love a person because he/she tends to panic, love a person because he/she tends to get injured but won't tell you because he/she doesn't want you to worry, love a person because he/she always say woobbenning, love a person because he/she loves to eat!, love a person because he/she always needs to do something even when he/she is unaware of doing it, love a person because he/she always puts you first, love a person because of their little subtle habits, love a person because they become a different person when they are alone with you... You will want to protect them, give them help even before they even thought of asking, be aware of their every single move even when they are not, and will always be by their side even when they are a thousand of miles away..."

Love a friend =)


Inspired after chatting with a friend...

Him: So, what do you think I should get her?
Me: It doesn't matter what you give her, as long as it shows that you're thinking of her, and will always be.

HAHA, corny, yeah I know. But sometimes, the truth can be found in the cheesiest of lines... =)


(cheesiest?? is that even a word?? lol)

Here I am, at the Precinct library. Waiting for my lecture at 12 PM (which is about 10 mins from now). Just had my tutorial at 10 till 11 AM. Something's wrong with my laptop. Suddenly shuts off by itself. Twice. Oh well, I'll take that as a hint so that I won't get distracted, and study more.

Stomachacheee. Alright, I've gotta go visit the loo first.

//Added 1:20 PM

Now I'm at the PC cluster near my hall. I think I'm gonna spend a lot of time here in the near future... Gonna give my laptop a break. Huhu. Wonder how life was before computers were invented... People must've seen more sunshine (or rain). Hmm.

Anyhoots, got this off BruD- article titled "Combining all Intelligences Is Secret of Success, Happiness"

... the teachings of Prophet Ibrahirin (a'laihi salam) who advised humans to find happiness in pursuit of basic needs and not the other way around as suggested by Abraham Maslow.

According to Abdul, everyone has a portion of each of the intelligences, but most fail to utilise all three together at the same time. "Example, there are some who are strong intellectually, but weak emotionally. They might do well in university, but cannot find success in real life because they cannot socialise," he said. He cited a study conducted by the Institute of Technical Carnegie, whereby the data collected-indicated that out of 10,000 sampled for their success, only 15 per cent were out of their technical competence and a staggering 85 per cent were successful because of personal factors.

In a separate study by Dr Albert Edward Wiggam, on 4,000 people who had lost their jobs, 10 per cent of the factors that led to their unemployment were due to technical competence and 90 per cent (3,600) lost their jobs due to their personality.

He continued that, "There are some who earn success in business or at their career, but do not know why they are not happy. Many of them even feel empty and lost. They do not know who they are, what their purpose in life is and they end up doing what they think is best for them but (in reality) it is not."

Hmm. Interesting, eh? Lets take a girl we all know and love, Zimah, for example. She claims she doesn't do well in school. But since she's got the passion for history and 'stories' (lets call the contents of those thick book 'stories' ha-ha), and proven by her latest exam results, she's actually better than she thinks she is. Kan Zims. Hehe. And she's got a very good socialising skills. I should know. I've seen them at work. Haha! She gets friends/acquaintances as fast she she drops them. *Grinz* Kidding yaw =p. She gets around to people by showing herself to people, and in return, they open up to her as quickly too.

Other people are a bit more reserved. Myself included. (Unless I meet someone like Zimah, ofcourse. Gila tarus jadinya.) Reservation can, at first, be interpreted as shyness. And only, after a while, you'll be comfortable enough around people and show your trueself.And others, after seeing you let your guard down, they do the same too. Ahhh. =).

But what about those minority of people who just won't open up? You've tried talking to them, and sure they'll respond to you. But after that, you'll have to try as hard again as the first time for them to open their mouths. Eventually, you'll just decide, well, that person must be 'VERY' shy then, and leaves that person alone. Let us say that VERY shy person is a total brainiac. It's inevitable that people will come up to him for explanations or answers, and he'll give that to you. But it seems that that's the only thing he'll give out (sorry, I'm using a 'he' as an example). In class, things might be fine - one'll have to concentrate on one's work, but when it comes to being outside the class, one'll have to interact too.

Sure, I get that in this world, some may only be comfortable socialising with people of similar background, eats lunch with the same stereotype of people, hang out with people of the same... hair colour? Haha. I am sometimes like that too. But I do try to mingle with the others. Even if we don't hit it off, or I happen to humiliate myself and should never be seen in public again, or became enemies, or have made myself being listed as a weirdo, at least I know I've tried to connect with them. It doesn't matter if they don't like you, at least you have other friends whom you can rely on =). At least you've tried. [Ofcourse, getting an enemy is not a good thing, neither is being listed as a weirdo - but if you think of it in a positive way, at least you know you won't be faking it around those people. They don't matter in your life, so you shouldn't make them a big deal. You have your wacky friends to worry about ;p]

So, however fast or slow you make friends to socialise with, as long as you try. There has been a lot of facts to prove that Emotional Intelligence can over rule your IQ, and that it might be more useful in life compared to the latter. Think about it. You were born on this earth not just to store information and make something out of it; you're born to store information and make something out of it, AND share it with the people around you.

I need a break. (Foooooddddddddd... hahaha). Netbula later at 5 PM.